Day two after flood

congrats! glad it went well for you. It's amazing how different and the same time so similar everyone's flood is. Take it easy and continue to take good care of yourself. There's some good post flood advice on here.

thanks for the update. I'm looking forward to doing a flood in the future. I can only imagine the depths that this can take you. I hear it can be a rough few days, although the rewards are endless. take very good care of yourself, hope to hear more!

Ding Ding Ding Ding!!!  That's it!!  This realization changed my life.  It's wonderful to see you have written this.... It's not always easy to operate from a place of pure love in this fear based, materialistic world, stuck in the 5th level of consciousness.....but when I do, I am in my vortex, manifesting from a healthy strong spirit.      We only leave the vortex, to get right back in.  Think of the oscillating feelings you say are experiencing post flood. Remember that the flood is nothing short of one of the most unique and powerful spiritual (and physical) "surgeries" one can endure.  Remember how good it feels to go from "the bad place" to that place which is nothing but love, compassion and understanding.  We only leave that place, to come right back. Welcome to the other side riverbend!!  So glad your sitter is bringing you comfort.  One Love, Blue T

feeling incredibly depressed and like i want to die.  not sure if this is normal or what the deal is.  just inescapable suffering that never ends.  what gives.  i have been this way for so long.  thought it was gone after the flood but it has come back pretty much full force.  a disconnection from life itself.

Hi surfing, Your flood experience sounds amazing.  I am sorry you are feeling depressed now but that should subside..  Just remember the love that Iboga gave and showed you.  When your appetite comes back eat healthy foods, fruits and veggies.. get exercise and start new patterns. I really hope you are feeling better soon... I think you will. much love, roxine

Hey buddy. I would keep a MDosing routine going for the time being. I know you mentioned depression in the past. Maybe you need a natural ssri (NOT a prescription)? From speaking and the posts I am thinking why you are having the ups and down. I am sick with the flu right now....,  but maybe we can chat on skype soon surfingisfun. In the meantime like LaLaBaBa said, remember what you were shown. You know what you were shown was fact. Your mind is getting in the way. You will have to train your "critter" brain. It has been a long time that you have not exercised it to think positive.

Feeling incredible tonight.  So light and at peace, like a blissfulness.  A whole world of difference from this afternoon.  I think I'm still adjusting.  Perhaps I will get some highs/lows until things smooth out?  Not sure but what I'm experiencing now sure isn't bad at all!

Very good to hear surfing! There may be some ups and downs.. your brain is still being worked on right now and probably for awhile.. some wires that are still straightening themselves out.  Let the medicine do its work and work with it.  You will get there. roxine

Surfing, I experienced similar highs and lows after my first flood. I took 2.6g TA, and the trajectory of my experience was much like yours: A scary, Dark period, followed by a rebirth into a Light period. Utter bliss. And then... Decay. And then one of the worst panic attacks of my life. Two of them. My trip sitter said, "During Iboga, you experience every facet of your soul." Your body/mind is processing a lot. You feel so light because a lot has been destroyed in you. But it's still making its way out. You are processing it, and it will naturally find its way out. You will even out. And you will realize that you cannot be happy all the time. One of the lessons of Iboga is that there is a ton of darkness in the world, and things will make you unhappy. Do not be attached to the bliss. You will be happy, and you will be sad, but you can always Love.

Well said RhythmSpring.  I feel great again this morning and have all night.  Like a lot has been cleared out.  It's amazing, I never knew it was possible to feel this pure and light.  I feel like I have a lightbody now.  That was actually part of my rebirth experience was having a whole new spiritual body made of light.  It's so cool!  For me it seems to come and go, but you're right there is always darkness too.  Another major theme of my flood.    But ya we wouldn't have all that we have here if it weren't for the darkness, aye.  All is as it is.    I can feel the medicine still working on me.  I am excited to see where things go from here.  In the meantime will be taking care of myself, eating well, exercising, watching thoughts, finding positive affirmations, and yeah just chillin' in the Love.

Please try to always remember this, I think it is the most important thing we can be shown/learn...I remember after my first flood experience, I was sitting up in the bed in a calm repose, not really 'thinking' about anything in particular - but feeling the most exquisite gratitude and love I have ever felt in my entire adult life. I kind of 'came out of' the pseudo trance and realized what I was feeling: it shook tears loose - deep, heartfelt, joyous sobs. And I pulled my knees up to my chest, wrapped my arms around them, and rocked back and forth. All I culd think was, "Thank You. Thank You" and as I did this, I felt my own arms enveloping myself - I suddenly realized with razor sharp clarity, that I love ME, and that I had held out on loving me for so many years. I knew, KNEW I was a worthwhile person, no conceit, no narcissism or anything remotely impure. Just TRUTH. Your experience rang true for me in many ways, I am very very happy you got such a powerful exposure.    These rapid oscillations and opposing cycles of intense feelings are not abnormal - you read about this kind of thing happening and I have myself been through very similar rough post-floods. There is gold in all of it friend. I would invite you to be patient, make this a priority way high on your list, and do as a friend of mine wisely suggested: "Treat yourself like an honored guest"        Don't be afraid man, this is not some 'sign' that the other shoe is gonna drop...everything is as it should be and spot on. Just breathe, and look: this thread is so full of Love and wisdom...of authentic concern and genuine care for another human being in a sensitive position - it makes my hair stand up. There is so much more than just the words we read on these boards, and in this thread right now I feel the condensed vibrations of many people with shared goals, intent on doing everything they can to advance whatever all 'this' is...you are numbered among them, and you have so much you can give to help others, look at what you have already done! We will never know an exact number for each person who reads the items we leave here: these artifacts of love and life struggles. But I can tell you it is thousands and thousands - do you realize how many folks are reached - really reached - just by reading words YOU wrote on an internet forum? It is something to be thankful for and proud of as well.      Great work, superb write up! Thank you for sharing such an amazing episode. Continued peace to you - stay moving man! ~ Cal

you sound like abeaham hicks lol. not that i disagree your bang on in alot of ways. ok i have a dilema ive been on 120mg of morphine for years actually last six monyhs been up to 200mg a day but ive tapered back to 110 at moment. im saving for a flood off a provider but started feeling guilty that 5k could help the family i have alot. so i was thinking of tapering down an average of 1mg a day over next few months and when i have my few days off a week from work taking few hundred mgs of ibogaine with meditation to help aid the process and then just take enough opiates to stave off wds then rinse and repeat until im off the stuff. amy thoughts on that anyone. cheers geo Ding Ding Ding Ding!!!  That's it!!  This realization changed my life.  It's wonderful to see you have written this.... It's not always easy to operate from a place of pure love in this fear based, materialistic world, stuck in the 5th level of consciousness.....but when I do, I am in my vortex, manifesting from a healthy strong spirit.      We only leave the vortex, to get right back in.  Think of the oscillating feelings you say are experiencing post flood. Remember that the flood is nothing short of one of the most unique and powerful spiritual (and physical) "surgeries" one can endure.  Remember how good it feels to go from "the bad place" to that place which is nothing but love, compassion and understanding.  We only leave that place, to come right back. Welcome to the other side riverbend!!  So glad your sitter is bringing you comfort.  One Love, Blue T [/quote]

serenefox21, Welcome to Iboga!  Let's have you start your own thread, that way you get the support you need and we keep the forum tidy.  Every person's situation with using Iboga to heal deserves their own spot  ...I hear ya on the 5K....I begged, borrowed, and bargained for my first flood.  I have heard of people hiring caring nurse practitioners who are willing to monitor you, which is a close second to a good provider.  Getting your medical testing done before hand is a must either way, IMO. You are spot on with the Hicks quoting.  I am not too familiar with the teachings, but am aware of the large following.  There have certainly been some great models of perception presented in a few of the you tube videos I saw.  Looking forward to offering assistance Geo!  Peace,  Blue Surfing, hoping you are finding ways to raise your vibration!  If you need suggestions on meditation techniques, let me know.  I am building an arsenal.