Flooded with wisdom

I wasn't flooding at the time of writing. Did feel like a flood dose, but Im new to this. I thought I'd microdose on a couple of nights before, and have the TA extract and TA tincture together with 1-2 grams of RB. But didnt want to play around with the quantities. So had the TA tincture the previous night. So that's how it ended up being imbibed, rather than a solitary flooding dose. ------ Day 2. I've begun Researching nootropics on the net. I feel the Iboga spirit inside my body now. And can still communicate with it. But it was feeling like a presence slightly outside my head. Now I get the sensation it's inside my body. Seeping through my cells.  I can feel it driving me to research stuff. I've been looking at nootropics and supplements and my usual line of research would lead me to ALA, Ubiquinolol (reduced form Coenzyme Q10), chlorphyll, General well being and health stuff. However now, Im researching setting up a racetam analogues - noocept probably, Alpha GPC/CDP Choline supplementation, ALCAR stack. Really anything to fire up the choline. Plus standard multivitamins, minerals, fish oil (instead of processed omega 3,6,9). Ordered noocept, but dont want to have it without a choline backup. Was about to order it, and remembered Athletic Greens. Thought about it and ended up ordering the Athletic Greens, seems to be the best natural plant based supplement on the face of the planet. And it's not processed down to individual ingredients. It's expensive. I was hesitating when I saw the sky high price 100 quid monthly or  80 quid recurring. Asked the father, and the voice was clear, go for it. So yes, might be expensive, but fuel for the car is more expensive. Haha, I used to have three vehicles before (a cruiser motorcycle, a campervan and a convertible) and now people ask me why I dont have a vehicle, and I tell them Im idealogically against buying an inorganic object that costs more to maintain than me. Ordering a brompton foldable bicycle tomorrow. Get fit and look good. Dont need to add muscle mass, maybe lose 5-10 lbs. Losing 15 of fat, and adding 5 of muscle would be even better. I feel a drive with so much to be done to create the life I've always wanted. i see old behaviours now. Analyse their old narratives holding them up, and replace them with newer more empowering narratives. Might get a food dehydrator too. Looking forward to the food and vegetable juicer coming on monday and looking ahead to stocking up some goodies. Will order some organic veg boxes to come in for next week, later today. This all seems suddenly thrust on me, and I can see the patterns in how I occupy my time to get to the goals I've set. Have to slot in researching raw food, and principles around it. You're right about the way Iboga lays the way forward. It's like my life ahead is planned. And if I slip into old habits, the future consequences of those actions is mapped out, and it has me scrambling for a better future narrative, and working with a plan towards it. The Iboga has cut large swathes of the what Miguel Ruiz calls the 'parasite', and what Stephen Pressman calls 'resistance' in the War of Art off. The parasite is the negative programming that I was carrying around. An offhand comment there, a traumatic episode somewhere else, a gazillion cumulative cognitions that had me in a holding pattern. I feel the spirit in me, and I have to feed it too. Good food, good nutrients, have to be careful with it's sternness, and that doesn't come across to other people. I might only do it another time in a year or so. As I dont feel comfortable sharing my body with a spirit (as I can contact other spirits for favors, or my ancestors, but stay away from that malarkey generally). But the Iboga smiles and tells me you'll be back. That's also the reason I stay away from Ayahuasca. Feeling Madre Aya in my body for weeks or months can sometimes get a bit offputting. The old me has been smashed to smithereens (again). There is a massive ego dissolution, and depersonalisation/derealisation. But I have pressed the reset button. There is a whole newer, more empowering future writing itself for me right now. Presenter course next weekend, Anthony Robbins seminar in May are things to look forward too. Will fit weekend workshops into my schedule. There is so much to create, to look forward to - my old patterns of sitting back and watching life pass by whilst I did my cushy freelance well paying 9-5, and muddling along is now viewed with some distaste, and filled with a motivation to change the old status quo. i was in a beautiful mindspace before iboga. Felt a lot of things were coming together. But with the father in me, I can see so much more clearly. You're right the path is being mapped out for me. Will go in again in a year or maybe 9 months. Open the gates up with Kambo, and do a more proper dose. Or maybe in a couple of years. I'll have the father with me for a while yet. I know people say the effects last a month or so. And you need to wait 3-6 months, maybe a year for the next flood. But if I was sensitive for months on to Madre Aya being in me, then will probably be longer with Papa Iboga. There has been so much death of the 'parasite' and the old me, I almost feel like doing a funeral. The old me was beautiful yes, and the present me is too. And I must remember to be accepting of myself, and all previous iterations. But successive iterations bring me and the body I inhabit closer with every passing day to where I want to be. Which really is centered within myself. And the best possible surroundings I can imagine. I have a lot of ideas to start working on. But talk is cheap. And we must get cracking on. The satnam meditation sounded great. i especially liked the vibrations massaging the insides. Will give it a go today. Re: the green drink recipe, please do pass it my way, and it shall be gratefully received. Will work on the basics and getting biorhythms back, and a sort of structure to work with or around.

Hi vividmeadow80, Thank you:)  It seems as if you did indeed gain a lot from this experience!  Iboga is truly amavividmeadow80 isn't it?  I am also curious about the TA tincture, did you extract it yourself?  I have been taking noopept for more than two weeks now,  I am starting to really enjoy it and the energy and focus it gives, also every night it seems as if I dream about Iboga, even recalling visions from flooding. I highly recommend Blues green drink, it was the first and only thing I could stomach for awhile after my last flood. So good. I look forward to hearing how you feel in the coming days. roxine

Apologies for how I handled my communication with you Zingdoozer.  Such interactions make me think I am not a good representative of the forum.  Good Luck

Beautiful report.  I still am in extreme afterglow and somewhat in disbelief at how well ibogaine 'works' for whatever you may need it for.  It is very wonderful to read of others who find this spirit in a shrub as life giving as I do.

Awesome write up - thanks for sharing....and welcome!!! I hope you find the place comfortable - you can even do this in your underwear and no one knows.  Good work man, stick around - glad to have you ~ Cal PS - KP - we're all just people being people brother, everything is good - everything is everything...thanks

lalababa - thank you! I'd suggest backing up the noocept with Alpha GPC or CDP Choline as the noocept burns through Acetyl Choline. Adding ALCAR activates acetyl choline transferase by supplying the acetyl groups. Also has anti ageing properties. Fish oil, multivits, minerals should round up a kickass basic nootropic stack. I just took the easy (though expensive) option and bought athleticgreens - https://www.athleticgreens.com/v4/ as the Iboga voice in my head said pull the trigger and go for it. Cheaper than car fuel for the engine that runs the temple that I inhabit. KP - much love to you brother. You are a good, nay great,  representive on this forum with your experience and sharing of wisdom. When I was doing searches on the site, I found your posts some of the most useful. Cal, Morniggloryseed - thank you. Glad to be here and be a part of the family. --------> I feel that I didn't really flood but rather did two microdose days, and a booster. Maybe do a solid flood in a few months, maybe 3-4. Do a Kambo opening, and a nice little TA extract, HCL, root bark mix (though not more than 2 grams total pure TA - 1 gram of each, with 2-3g root bark maybe). Go easy with my early ones till I find my feet. Maybe drop in and see the mother in the meantime. She'd be happy to see the prodigal son back :p Thought I'd set up a lifestyle journal - almost want to call it an iboga journal or a lifestyle/iboga journal Wednesday First microdose of iboga circa 2-3 gram TA extract Thursday 21 March Mood crash all day Watched Hungry for Change - the food doc that changed the way I view food. Did 16 mg of TA extract as was wary of ODing on the next day Friday 22nd March Ordered the Rolls Royce of fruit and vegetable juicer's online. Omega VERT 350 HD Mood crash worse today. Did  90% of TA extracted from 25 gram root bark. Saturday Wrote detailed trip report. Researched nootropics and settled on a noopept, alpha GPC, ALCAR, fish oil, multivitamin/mineral stack. However thought I'd look at athletic greens, and decided to buy them when the Iboga said Go for it. 3 quid a day but well worth it. Still getting the noopept from ebay, but wont be having it. Or only a tiny amount. The athletic greens is a great all in one.   Today Rang the local Brompton store and booked a bespoke bicycle with some kickass accessories - 1300 quid is a bit steep. Almost 500 quid over base price which is expensive in itself at 800. Went into the store and left a deposit. They said bespoke would take 15 weeks from Bromptom factory in London. I thought fuck it get their in house bespoke ones and add extras. It was doable. So picking up thursday instead of 15 weeks.  Thinking black, red or yellow. black is classy and will age well as I do, red is understated and overstated chic at the same time, yellow is loud, trendy and fun methinks. Went for yellow.  Did a couple of important housekeeping i.e. bank, and computer fixing setup work that I had postponed for a couple of months. Researched food dehydrators and wanted to buy one - but though I should research how I'll use them and get one in a couple of days maybe. The TSM stainless steel are the best ones in the UK. Thats almost 2000 quid spend in 2-4 days. But guess will be well worth it. Have to feed the temple right. Have to research a dieta to keep the Father around as long as possible. And then function at the same level off it until the next flood a fair few months down the line. Off meats, had some vegetables in an italian restaurant that had flour on it, and I didnt like it. Also had fish (which I'm having in preference to meats - but can stay off them if need be). For the first time in my life, I enjoyed the vegetables more than the meat. Ordered organic fruit and veg boxes for next week. Lets see what tomorrow brings - I know, I get my fruit and veg juicer and inaugrate it. Happy days! Glow already on this morning, my best buddy from 26 years came down to see me and we spent the day pfaffing about. And I laughed as much as I have in months. And Im a pretty happy chappy usually. Ran over recent changes. I've always struggled with a stutter and sorted it with some hypnotherapy last week. Also stopped alcohol (which wasnt really a problem), and weed (which I thought I really didnt want to stop) - but thought Id stop them both as another hypnotherapist who worked with bioresonance said it would be easy. And it was - no cravings either. Can sit in a room with people smoking and not feel the urge to toke or drink. So here I am in a place I didnt dream I'd be a month ago - off alcohol, off weed, not stuttering, off meat, onto veggies, raw food lifestyling, etc etc.. And best of all the 'parasite' of my negative programming has been cut off in almost one fell swoop (which was my lofty intent heading into the trip). Tomorrow is another beautiful day. Welcome to the rest of my life being the best of my life. Gratitude to you all for accepting me. And with deepest gratitude to Papa Iboga.

great, all of it!  I will be trying some of these other things as well.  We are glad to have you here in our little family as well zing! much love, roxine

Thank you for sharing zingdoozer. Great stuff. So much there that left an impact with me.

Got my fruit and veg juicer and its a beaut. Made a couple of fruit n veg juices and they tasted great. Started a 30 day challenge yesterday where I write a 3-500 word article everyday and wrote one in nootropics that I posted on the diet and recipes thread. Aim to gt 30 or so articles done and slap them all online in a bit. Starting a website. Working with setting up plan B passive cash flow income. Spending less time on the net. And even spending a couple o hours on Facebook last night really really hurt. Working on getting organised and galloping through to do lists. I had issues with self worth and deservedness and self sabotage and was doing hypnotherapy to deal with them but with the Iboga reset I cancelled further appointments. Might get back and do it when I find newer sticking points to work on. Clearing through stuff at work too - above and beyond what I usually do. Aim to have a clean slate or get there so I can fit the real important stuff in instead of continually firefighting instead of not alighting fires in the first place. Eating healthier and moving slowly to a non processes raw food diet. Doing a daily ritual practice that involves lbrp, rose cross, middle pillar, blue lights sat nams, meditation and ancestor chat. Have been keeping a dream record in recent weeks and aim to keep it going. Will need to look at analysing symbology soon. As long as I stay off the net then the more good things happen.

Posted some of this post in the iboga talk forum - for feedback, as dont think I'll get much on here. edited it to include a lot of my current issues Im working through. I'm not sure if other people have come across this - but I've a good feeling there is a pretty consistent post Ibogaine stress. The stress that comes from kicking your bad habits, going just past the glow, and seeing the crapola that your bad habits/addictions/behaviours/avoidance, societal/personal self worth and deservedness mindsets and limiting beliefs have created. The dreams that we pissed on thinking we would do them 'someday', the problems we now have to solve because of all the avoidant behaviours of yesterday, and so on and so forth. With every passing day I see the train wreck that I was regularly propagating, that has now built up in the background. It's solveable, but there's a lot to be solved. In the past this was the exact reason I would start smoking the cannabis again. I'd stop for a few days, and once the stark realities of the outside world and all the shite I had to start dealing with crept up, I would have the cannabis to almost tranquilise me and get me into an alternate reality where taxes, bills, life goals, ambitions didnt exist and I lived through one big hedonic pause where I didn't make progress in my life (apart from knowledge, and travel, and maybe becoming a better person i.e. treating people a whole lot better, and an insight into myself - so wasnt a total failure - but but but..) apart from what I just mentioned within brackets, and etc etc etc. There are taxes from a couple of years that need paying, or at least filing, and that was on a tax avoidance scheme that I dont think would stand any scrutiny any more - so might expect a 10-30K bill from the taxman, A house that got repossessed because I missed payments when away on holiday (thinking Id put it on the market and it would get sold, and I could pay everyone off - but my holiday got extended and I had to come back for proofs of address to sell the house, as I didnt have them on holiday and when I did get back - I found that it was repossessed just a week earlier, but this would have sorted itself out with just an email to the people) and now have a 3-7K repossession bill, Another bank account that adds 5 quid to my overdraft  every day and Im overdrawn by 17 quid and this has been going on in the background over the last 18 months. I have a narrative about an ex-girlfriend I'm not moving on from, and from a time when I find that Ive always had girlfriends, I've now been single for three years. I used to get my sex from one night stands, as I told myself I didnt want to break a girls heart, and all of them had a thing for me, and then avoided going out, and now started sleeping with hookers, and a couple of them have started falling for me. When I could get the whole thing sorted with some hypnotherapy (which I am doing now). My social life that used to be great is now in tatters, because of my freelance job, and i stay in on the net doing fuck all apart from reading what I tell myself are interesting books. I havent been maintaining a portfolio or CPD practice, and since Im in a professional job, this can come back to bite me in the ass. There's a company I started that I havent filed returns for, and I have a scam artist accountant who said that he filed them but cant send me copies - and when I ring the taxman, they say they havent recieved it. i asked for the company to be made dormant, but this hasnt happened. The company also has an inventory at an amazon warehouse which i joined, but which I failed to manage, and now I have a 1K bill that I havent paid, and when I've changed my card details they still cannot process my payments. But lost around 6K on it. And havent made any receipts and the inventory system is too confusing to even find out how many objects have been sold, and my profit loss margins. I've moved house, and havent re-routed my mails - and have to get that done, and see what other problems I have to deal with. So the above are just the tip of the iceberg biggest problems. There are a fair few tiny problems on the side. I'm keeping a positive mindset, and will begin cranking through them all - I owe it to the temple/body/life that I inhabit. But jaysus, how much more of a train wreck was I going to let my life get into before I got into 'someday' (which never comes) and started to sort these issues out. Im sure there are others here whose lives are more of a train wreck than mine, and this is pretty light going. It's only money and a few hours work to repair. maybe a bit of a headache. But there's a spectacularly beautiful life to be lived beyond that. Sure, I have to surrender to the bliss of the present moment, and aim for the best possible future. But the housekeeping HAS to get done, and I have to remove as much of the cumulative stressors building up, so I make space for living the beautiful life of my dreams.

Hey vividmeadow80,     Great journal, but, what about physical stuff?   Were you able to move about?   Coordination effected? and to what degree?         Peace and a good day  in the now...

Here is one of them, sometime soon (hopefully) I compile a full list of all the herbs both homeopathic and extracts for ataxia... http://www.magiherbs.com/luhedonotwrt.html

"The microdose iboga was speaking to me," Hear ya there,bro.

KP, thanks for the recipe. Much appreciated. ----- My life keeps getting better and I keep on my journey of doing the things I've always wanted to do. Tuesday, I went for yoga. Wednesday I went for Krav Maga (always wanted to do a martial art - though some might say its not a martial art. It is a very practical skill to have). Tonight (thursday) I continue hypnotherapy to get rid of some specific blocks. Saturday. Saturday I go for my first swimming class. Astrological therapy later in the day. Sunday a bicycle ride down to the next big town 24 miles away. My first long bicycle ride. Next Tuesday Yoga again. Wednesday - trumpet lessons. Always wanted to learn a musical instrument. But a friend said learn the piano first to have a grounding in music theory - however didnt do very well with that. Had a learn piano, learn guitar and finally settle with saxphone plan. But the Iboga said, skip all that. Go straight for the trumpet (sax too difficult to lug around everywhere) and get lessons to have some accountability. Met a friend at the Krav Maga class who has a sax and he lives a few doors away - and we can practice together. Also getting to do 25 minutes  (one pomodoro a day of personal housekeeping work - i.e. personal tasks like taxes and the like). My meditation now upped to 20 minutes a day. Now with a Profound Meditation 3.0 brain wave entraintment aid. They give you a free 20 minute started track and Im using that one. It really is all you need, and my meditation has stepped up a notch. Ego dissolution continues. I see zingdoozer and sometimes speak of him in the third person i.e. let the poor bugger's dreams come true. He deserves it. I see all my programming and BS that controls my responses. And what a knee jerk reacting machine I was - based on my software responses. I think I've discovered the secret to enlightenment - and its nothing more earth shattering than moment to moment awareness. I fall in love with God - more and more everyday. The God that is EVERYTHING around me. The unconditional love and light that I breathe, eat, sleep, and that surrounds me all the time and that I drown in. Healthy eating continues. I lose a pound of bodyweight every week. Eating far less processed food. One meal a day of white rice max. And even going to cut that down. Otherwise its organic fruit and veg juicing. It's all good and getting better. More gratitude to the Iboga.

Man - OOOH! That's it! Great post zing, thanks much  I second that.  This was a strong recurring message I got from iboga on my first flood, to be in the now (as well as not to take myself so seriously/stop worrying/ego) .

The journey continues. I went on a Tony Robbins seminar this weekend just gone, Unleash the Power Within. It was a beaut. Sure, there is the nondual 'reality' where everything is one and we get rid of desire to get rid of suffering and then there's the five sense reality matrix and competition, and striving and seeking - Tony Robbins, for those of you who might not know about him, is probably the number 1 motivational speaker in the world. Sure, rah rah American you can do it!! shtick, but a marvelous healing experience too. 5000 people from 20 countries mass hypnotised into breaking through limiting beliefs. Started off with a firewalk, and got better after that. 50 hours of reframing thrown at you. I've been off the alcohol for 2.5 months, and had a planned drinking session last night with two buddies from a couple of decades ago. The seminar changed my beliefs about what I was eating and am now on a raw food diet. Found out I might be having diabetes, (initial pinprick test, and not in a laboratory so not conclusive (needs two lab tests above 126, and I was 129 on the one occasion, but Im not looking to get or avoid a diabetes label as I'll never get on the drugs, and this is my best excuse to get and stay fit. Been fruit juicing a fair bit (I'm in two minds about giving my pancreas a bit of a rest with the carbs in juices, but feel that if its non processed carbs, then I should be okay, maybe even better than okay), and off meat and have the occasional fish. Almost completely off processed foods. Lost 4 kilos / 9 pounds in the last few weeks. Been cycling too. Foldable bike that I carry around with me. Maybe join the burnthefat Tom Venuto fitness forum. Hit the 98 day challenge starting June 8th. 10 usd a month for the body of my life - sign me up. Haha, sure I need to put the hard yards in - but will give it a good ol schoolboy try. Been doing trumpet lessons. And it's been a beautiful experience. Falling in love with music all over again. Or maybe even for the first time. Also working through some Harmonica DVD's off the net that come highly reccomended (JP Allen's harmonica.com lessons). My music playing background is minimal, just some dabbling on the guitar and piano - more's the pity. So, it is good to stick with it. It's great with the technology and knowledge around that the blueprints for improving are easy to find. I read the Talent Code recently, and it speaks about how the triad of deep involved practice, ignition/inspiration and master coaching combine in people who are at the tops of their fields or have attained mastery in anything. Whereas before I would have dabbled a bit, I now see life as a train journey, and missing stops along the way often means you cant get back and catch them again. Time's passing by amazingly quickly, and there's so little time left to do the things we would like to be doing or get good at. I can't have a crazy hairstyle any more (lost my hair and hitting the clean shaven look), cant eat processed food or carbs, cant play professional sports - with every passing year more and more options get taken away from you. Yeah, before I would have dabbled a bit, not sure where I was going. Get stuck and stop when I hit a plateau. I now know I ought to do it with a teacher, get my basics right and not aim to rush the process, have a goal of playing on stage in 10 years at a fairly reasonable standard, could have 30 years of playing under my belt if I hit 65. I've always wanted to play the saxophone, however almost impulsively bought a trumpet - and think Papa Iboga might have had something to do with it. My initial plan was to learn the keys first, then guitar and settle on the sax. The Father said scrap all that, go for the instrument you really would love to play straight off. And do it right and get a tutor. Will be looking into getting a life coach (maybe a session or two a month) - getting swimming lessons. Will get a good accountant too (the guy I have is a train wreck waiting to happen - says he's filed my company returns and isnt giving me any proof and the tax people say I havent ever filed returns). Have a to do list I work off everyday. Keep myself busy through the day doing things I like to be doing instead of whiling time away (though I do a fair bit of that too . Im in a new town, and working on getting my social circle up too. But this is the UK, where its slightly more difficult to set up a social circle than elsewhere. Has to be done. So weight loss, possible diabetes, new raw food diet, cycling, trumpet lessons, swimming lessons, harmonica, firewalk, tony robbins motivational shtick, housekeeping (sorting out personal issues), and a fair few other changes. Hehe, even growing a beard for the first time maybe in me life. Most importantly, looking forward to a flood next weekend. Do a cleanse and invite the Father in. Still feel him in me from the last time a couple of months ago. What a rollercoaster couple of months it's been. Not messing about with low yielding vinegar extracts where I'm not really sure of how much I'll be getting. I paid a bit more and am getting a gram of HCl and 2.5 grams of TA. 3.5 grams should be the sweet spot. Will also be doing a kambo opening before. Should have met the Mother this weekend, or the one just gone. To clear the path, but not a huge issue. Will steel myself for the 6 hours stirring and cooking to make the brew in 3-4 weeks time. Dont really see it happening though, as Im not too sure if Madre Aya can add to much to the super powerful presence of Papa Iboga (hmm, she is his consort though . Maybe do the ayahuasca before meeting the Father the next time around. Looking forward to a consciousness conference in Londres in a couple of months where I'll be meeting bancopuma and maybe a couple of other peeps off here. Looking forward to aligning frequencies he said  .

I am just smashing it. Like I have never ever done in my life before. After my diabetes scare a couple of months ago, I lost 8 kilos of weight. Whilst still keeping most of my lean muscle mass. Dropped bodyfat down to 14%. So am now the lowest I've weighed since I was 19. Doing nothing more than cycling and shifting to a non processed diet. That has made the pounds drip off. Occasional meat too. Maybe once in a week or two at most. Fish a couple of times. But mostly a fruitarian diet. Cycling as my primary means of transport, and it's been brilliant for my mood. Activity is the best antidepressant. The Tony Robbins seminar had another unexpected fallout - I am having post hypnotic suggestions hit me all the time. One being that I AM THE VOICE ie I am the voice in my head. And the negative voice can be discarded. So the negative voice in my head is minimal or gets shut down. Especially when existentialist teachings make me realise that I'm the one who layers meaning onto all the blank slates around me. And that I'm just walking around creating a story and a backstory around myself. And none of that really exists. I can having a happy blissful life and an absolutely miserable life just by the thoughts I choose to focus on. So I tend to focus on stuff that keeps me feeling good, and make believe the rest doesn't exist. Staying away from the Peter Pan head in the clouds thinking though. My little version of a mid life crisis has me understanding that I have very few years and very few things to get good at in my life and I'd better choose wisely the things I'm going to be bleeding over the next few years for. Doing trumpet lessons and can now finally play some basic tunes. It's one of the most difficult instruments. But I think it's the coolest instrument too, and that's probably why it's comparatively harder. seven valve combinations for the whole possible range of notes across all octaves. Meeting up with a mentor, business partner, and working on a business plan for a holistic therapy health centre. Hiring a MA and a BA in film studies and working through a storyboard for a documentary. Already hired someone with an insiders knowledge of the book Im writing to edit it. It's all good and getting better. Only niggle is to work on the housekeeping stuff i.e. taxes, accounts, paperwork, CPD portfolio and the like.  Just need to be working for a few more months before I can think about calling the 9-5 quits. If I do of course, Im pretty happy with it. Much happier than when I was on the year of world holiday. Haha, guess earning more money than you spend can do that to you. And the structure is good. But gotta drop the structure and jump into the unknown. And make the mindbody I inhabit, dream's come true. But yeah, gotta lose the structure and free the space for the real important stuff that I prioritise to occupy my time with. Not give most of my waking hours to an invisible employer (slave trader? But for the nonce, it is providing a very good engine for my dreams. And for the nonce, housekeeping too. Good to get the worst shit out of the way. The stuff I love doing, ill always find the time and energy for that.

Wowee Wow WOW Zing! So good to hear all of this.. it really does seem like you have taken everything you learned and ran..Fast!  Very happy for you!  Thank you for sharing. roxine

thanks roxine. I feel like an almost completely different person. sure, some of the old dragging my heels on the important stuff, and self discipline issues still continue. But far far better. But really happy with the go-getter go make em dreams come true persona inside my head. Really life changing meeting the Father. Will me meeting him again at a retreat in Thailand in a month or so. Can't thank him enough.

Smashin 'em...That's right, man - DO IT