flooding the gates

Woah, good read samyama!  I just got off a pretty nice ( it was beautiful, no dark visions ) ride myself,  the floods I have done just keep getting better,  Maybe since this one was so utterly blissful I don't need it anymore? My mind is still in a buzz but thank you for your report! roxine

Thank you for sharing samyama. Very powerful, and it was very emotional for me to read your report. I am so happy that iboga purged some of that negativity for you. fascinating about karma and ancestry. I was working with a psychic who essentially told me the same thing, about how negative energies were passed on to me from bad karma in my ancestry that would take much effort to purge, but that willpower and intelligence were 2 gifts that I also inherited that allowed me to be a survivor. My 3rd flood helped me purge some of this, but in the long term I have to mindful of not falling back into old habits. Take care and god bless.

Thank you  I updated the text so it reads a bit better now. Part of the solution is to put it online for all to read. It's like a memory dump and I am happy that it is done. Now time for for some relaxation, this was quite some work.

Some three weeks later there are some things to comment on. First of all that all that I wrote is like a raw memory dump almost immediately after the event. Some things in there sound strange even to me, but with some time they proved to be a sort of encrypted messages. Almost all things were helpful in the end, given that they were 'decoded'. I didn't found any really real fantasies in it, when peeled off some skin it was all real valuable insight. And secondly, that Iboga is really for real without any doubt! It was actually on of the first realizations that it brought such lucidity and the sense that in all this crap I've been through there finally was something for real. And I play with the thought that Iboga was just a mask I hid myself behind to get over any from of selfdoubt or disbelief. Like being a superhero is when you put on the mask so you're no longer capable of fear and doubt. This confidence remains. Thirdly Iboga itself told how much I would tend to believe this or that, while in fact the real world was beyond that. Even Iboga told me like, I make up stuff in order for you to find some insight. This was something invaluable, have you ever found something that tells you it makes things up? And there was much much more.

Thank you gus_rests for sharing this.  I am glad you are showing good results from your treatments.  What an amazing experience you have illustrated for us.  You are blessed to have such a friend who could help facilitate such an intense treatment. I met Mr. Iboga too, and we also were able to interact/communicate.  He showed me what I needed, proved his divinity in an instant... I believe I have had a few entheogens actually suggest to me "how to think."  It always resulted in a lasting sense of inner peace.  In regards to Iboga, for all of us to be seeing similar things, that is mind blowing!  Iboga Spirit is alive and has an agenda, and I believe it more every time I read accounts like this.

This friend has sure been amazing. We are like a blind and a deaf supporting each other  . But I learned to do Kambo, Ayahuasca and now Iboga from him. Without I would needed to go to these expensive sessions, which I couldn't pay for in the past and still am unable to try. So yes a true blessing  Past weeks I found that I had to relearn a lot of skills. Especially the social ones. But somehow I attract women  I was missing that for a long time! And most important: I haven't been vexed by improbable coincidances thusfar. Life hasn't become any easier, but now there is this quality that makes things fit, how should I say this?  Things are there when they are supposed to be and I find luck now. The no-go-concrete-wall has disappeared. Deep down the subconscious has calmed a bit. It used to be in a permanent state of agitation, expressing itself in nightmares and probably promoting bad luck that didn't make any sense. But... I like to smoke marihuana even more than before, while I was hoping that I would get over this craving at last. In fact during the almost 80 hours of waking that accompanied the flood I kept this desire all along. And smoking some does feel so good  . Somehow this doesn't make sense.

Sounds like the dream you had when you were 13 was an episode of Alice in Wonderland Syndrome. At the least, it sounds very similar to experiences I had when I was a kid, I had dreams like that about once a year until I was fourteen, then they suddenly went away. The horrible feeling of having to solve something or fix something that's impossibly vast and complex really rings true with me. It's kind of like an oneironautic bad trip.

Are there other people you know of that had similar dreams? Somehow I get the feeling this puzzle isn't very far away...