my ibogaine experience
Man Mushroom !! I experience similar themes in my journey . I am glad this experience was a profound one. journey on brother and thank you for sharing. much love and respect - harvey plex
Greetings, bravemeadow82! So glad your journey was a positive one! What a fantastic write up! So many of the themes you described are what I have come to regard as 'essential iboga' - the things that describe it's unique signature so succinctly and are (in many ways) the sole domain of this medicine. Other entheogens can show us sights/visions like this...but only iboga does so in the ways it does. "The eyes of the child see no wrong..." to quote a favorite song. The theme of the Ourorboros (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ouroboros) is something that has come to mean a great deal to me as well... "This is necessary - life feeds on life feeds on life feeds on life..." The whole thing is just too glorious for words. When we realize ancient, ultimate truths, everything pales by comparison. I am so happy for you! Man - I was thinking about you lately and wondering how things were...this is just too much! Good for you brother! Thanks for taking the time for such a detailed write up for us - I know how hard that can be. It took me over a week to be able to catch up on the computer at all and even longer to make some comprehensive 'sense' of all I experienced. It sounds like you got it my friend. How is your wife? Did she have a similar experience? Wishing you both joy and peace - and please please stick around! Cal RISE, RUN, FEED, RIPEN, WOUND, WITHER, FALL, RISE AGAIN...
Mr. Mushroom, I am so glad that you survived the experience and returned to tell us about it! I recall several dire warnings in response to your initial questions. I am interested in hearing about what you think about them, now that you have had the Iboga experience. As for Ouroboros, it can symbolize several things. One thing that it signifies to me is self-awareness. My first accessible memory was lying on top of a bassinet after being bathed, probably around the age of one. I remember sticking my big toe in my mouth, and it was like completing a circuit -- all of a sudden I became aware of myself as a distinct being. It's like previously, all the sensations in the various parts of my body were a mystery. But my mouth was aware of my toe, and my toe could sense my mouth. Eureka! They must be connected! Good to have you back! guenevere_walks PS -- While perusing the wiki article Cal so thoughtfully provided a link to, I found the following line drawing. It occurred to me that it might make an excellent avatar. e
As far as the dire warnings I don't want to sound like I am flaunting or anything, but from what my wife and I experienced this substance seems very safe. If I was much older and had a heart condition I would think twice I'm sure. I mean, African's have been taking it for ages. Laying down on cement floors in a thin robe, freezing cold, shaman shoving more and more down your throat. And they give it to pre-teens even, elderly. Seems to me the dangers are way overblown. I don't regret not having someone play shaman either, seems like that was built right into the root it's self. Not quitting the subs for longer was not wise. I can't relate it to how it would have felt just coming off heroin or morphine, but it was pretty uncomfortable for a week or so. It took about a month to start sleeping through the night, but it wasn't a big deal. Basically there were some residual w/d's, but I was so inspired by the experience I didn't even consider taking opiates for relief.
Yeah, I can agree with all you said, except for the part about suboxone, which I thankfully have never experienced. While I expect that you were very glad to have your wife there to help you stagger to the bathroom, I feel that Iboga is far less dangerous than taking a bell-ringer off a crakk pipe or a rig full of H in the arm. What I would like to see, though, is the guy at the liquor store saying "Hey buddy, you know this shit could kill you?" before he sold you that pint of whiskey... Iboga: A wise, gentle and helpful friend. ~et
Oh it's so good, good, good to hear from you. I am so interested in part two, and to hear about your wife if she wants to let that be shared. I know I cautioned you about safety and sitter, and I'm so glad your experience went well without it. My home experience was what I needed, too, but next time I'll have an experienced sitter. Just some things that would be better to me with someone who knows what to expect, and can guide the experience. On safety, in Africa there is always some ritual around the eating. The west may not think much of ritual as a safety measure, but it's still real. Intention is really important, too, and from our earlier talks I remember you were approaching with frim intention the whole time Ibo was on it's way. Funny that it took awhile. I keep seeing how Ibo seems to have it's own timeline. That the time you take it turns out to be perfect, though. I have been noticing that people who are familiar with plant teachers already seem to go quite deep with Iboga. I know what you mean about having a hard time talking about it. I think we all go through that. It's a big effin deal, to be sure. Oh, heck, just really good to hear from you, Mr Mushroom. Love and roots, B