beat generation

Thank you, you for listening to this my intro to what hopes to be the hearts of all iboga members. My binding with junk started 20 years ago. Me a bohemian lad hip to Ginsberg and Burroughs, vinyl jazz and Direct Action in the A political eco activism movements of wash DC. I lived to use and used to live. After 9 or so years I thought methadone would be a better fit.. 4 years later I found i had made a mistake. I acquired and major benzo habit ontop of my junk and meth so in the end It was on hell of a kick in a state detox. It was 2004 and I was so beat, I called the first NA guy's number i found, and though it took quite a bit of white key tags, I finally celebrated 2 years clean. Hands down the best I felt in my life. But unfortunately for me I would relapse, loose every good thing i had in life, visit lots of detoxes and rehabs. Toward the end the love of my life and every other friend dead to dope I flew to Bogota Columbia vowing to kill myself.. I lasted a couple of months on the streets and hotels not speaking a word of english but high as hell and even more depressed. By a miricle a relative found me and flew me back to florida. went to rehab got stuck on subutex and fought tooth and nail for years to come off. Finally I put together enough money by selling the only thing I had to my name, my car for $10,000 and went to mexico for ibogaine flood and treatment. Little did i know it would not help the benzo habit at all. So the ongoing benzo abuse lead to me relapsing, ending up on subutex.. the only good news is after 20 years i finally kicked Benzo's for Good! Now I am broke and depressed. Their is no way I can come up with enough cash to go to a clinic, and right now I can't even afford to buy the hcl and rb, not to mention the SAO's or poppy pods.. sorry gotta run, but thats me and my situation. Any help from anyone, suggestions, etc. I would love to hear from you all, message me..
~judith98

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mellowhawk· 7d ago

welcome! sheesh it's a looong road huh!. If you want it it will happen. best of luck.

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mistyturtle· 7d ago

If you don't mind, where are located judith98? You can pm me if you like. The benzo's are great to pass, sounds like you are still fighting and there is light at the end of the tunnel.

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