my flood

It's been a week since my flood. I wish I could say anything other than how utterly disappointed I am. This is entirely my own fault. I went to Oklahoma to flood with my friend, only to discover he didn't even have a place to live, let alone a safe place to flood. The trip was a disaster, so I came home early, heartbroken and disgraced. I was forced to take suboxone in order to get home. Try traveling through an airport in heroin wd. See how far you get. Anyway, I get homeand take the ibogaine. The trip was 12 hours of third bardo mindgames, totally chaoticand miserable. Though I was tripping hard, and though I had no nausea at all, at no point was there room enough for a cogent thought, much less anything even resembling insight or self exploration. I was really counting on that, touching my soul again. I slept two hours the next night, then 6, then normal, and for a few days I felt calm and happier. Then the suboxone wd overwhelmed the ibogaine. I am back on it. I was in no position to attempt this, physically or psychologically. But, now I have no ibogaine, which was not enough by half I think, and I lost my job. It hurts to look at my fiancee, who had such high hopes. The disappointment is palpable.

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happysparrow· 27 Sept 2026

That sucks, Sorry to hear that Mine was a failure also due to puking but I was able to gather more RB and am reading about the anal administration route due to the fear of puking up everything again. How much RB did you take? I did 20 grms, got the wa wa's puked, ate 5 more grams that I had caped up for back ups. I hadent evan 24 hours and I had to use again the wd were so unbearable

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silverwren97· 27 Sept 2026

I had 3 or 4 g of rb as a loading dose, then 2.5 g of ta an hour later. I discovered later that I still had a gram left, which meant I didn't take my full dose. Also, it had been sitting in small Ziploc bags for a few months, and definitely lost potency. Unfortunately, I lost my job, so I can't get any more for a while. Which is ok, bc I intend to actually prepare myself. Get into competitive physical condition, meditate in earnest, everything I thought about doing, but was too depressed to do. I have to say, I do feel much more centered and clear, despite the subs.. I'm sorry your flood didn't work out. It's my understanding that rb is more likely to induce nausea. As I said, I had none whatsoever. Is there a reason you don't want to use ta? You can extract it yourself easily, which is more cost effective.

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roxine· 28 Sept 2026

Sorry to hear of the unfortunate circumstances with your flood, seems like you didn't get the head cracking you needed and coming off of subs I hear can be harder than anything else. Did you wean down prior or switch to SOAs? Maybe you have mentioned this before. It seems like you did get a glimmer of what Iboga can give you and I hope you take that as a sign that it can work for you.. . being prepared is key and even with Iboga, coming off opiates and subs in particular will still be hard, but you must want it and deal with the fatigue, it may take awhile to get your energy back as I am sure you have read on here (there are many stories) Luck and Love! roxine

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happysparrow· 28 Sept 2026

Yea I would extract but I dont want to mess up my last 53 grams of RB cause ive heard of people messing it up, Im looking in to Anal administration I heard its dangerous but no nausa so Im gonna start off with 5 grams with an oral syringe, Like you, AFter I puked I was so pissed and felt I left myself down. So im prepping and seeing what I can find out about that way of administration here on the board. be in touch Oh I dont have the cash to order any more, the RB was given to me by my cousins X husband. But yes ive tried HCL before and TA, Thats what I overdosed on was the HCL. Im sure you read my Over dose story, its in my signature.

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