My Overdose,I was asked to elaborate more on this at request so everyone knows..
Heavy duty brother, I'm glad it didn't come to anything worse - it sure as hell could have. You just weren't ready to really quit, that's all, try not to beat up on yourself for it - you learned some valuable lessons and didn't get seriously hurt. I had to learn the hard way that wanting to stop and needing to stop are two completely different things...when you think about it - it is pretty damned obvious that anyone hooked on anything needs to stop...heh. Pretty well a no-brainer, but it takes a real hard look inside to see whether or not we are really ready to quit using. As much as I hate methadone and other replacement therapies, they do have their silver linings: sometimes people are just not ready to live their lives without opiates. It is a cold hard fact and people kill themselves inadvertently all the time thinking they're ready to quit, or quitting for someone else or some other reason than actually wanting to stop. We may want to want to stop, but that's not good enough for long term abstinence from opiates. I wish it were, there'd be less suffering out there for sure. Honestly, I think many people get confused, they truly get hung up right there - the split between really wanting to stop for your own good, for yourself and no one else...and the desire to wish that you wanted to quit with conviction, but deep down it isn't there, or its not there in the strength required to make a permanent change. It is a huge thing, in fact in many ways it is EVERYTHING. It isn't casual. I'm dumb, stubborn, stoopid, whatever you want to call it - I self deprecate about this very thing because it took me many times to understand it this way. I have flooded on 30g of root bark and detoxed successfully...I purged like hell though so be ready for that. In truth I welcomed the purge, it was the most intense puking I have ever faced bar none but I knew it was scrubbin' me deep and killing all that poison. As long as you keep the wood down an hour - 90 minutes I imagine you pretty much got most if not all the alks out and you are just chucking up bark. Intense, and the trip lasts a long time, way longer than ibogaine. I feel you man, I hope this is the one for you, just always be careful and work with it, it will meet you half way. Best of luck to you friend, Cal
Hey man, thanks for posting this. Great story and good info to know and be prepared for. Thx again..
EK thanks for sharing this. Your post is wise counsel for a lot of hot heads out there. Just to be clear - you had 0.7g HCL plus 2g TA initially. Another 0.7g HCL plus 20g Rootbark on the following day. (Or did you have the 20g RB on standby for boosters later?).
Yes all in all i consumed 1400 mlg of hcl within 2 days plus 2 grams TA and the boosters (RB) got flushed during the 911 call.
never got around to the bark as for it was for boosters but 911 was called and they were flushed before paramedics & LE were there