Depersonalization And IBOGA PLESE READ

Hey guys,

It took my account forever to be activated but here i am. I am 18 and i think i have ocd,social anxiety and depersonalization. I have read all the posts where iboga trips have messed people even more up with this but i have also heard the ones where it was succesfull. I have felt this narrow minded way of thinking for such a long time. I might have PTSD instead. Even those with DP can still communicate online or irl but i seem to jus be to narrow minded.

It's only after i watch a movie do i get aware of the real negative things that i am doing and i realize how messed up i've been living my life, then bam i relapse and back into that bad thinking. I was like this even before i thought i had DP. 

Now a friend of mine who tried iboga and was succesfull with it had a post on the dp site as well as another one. 

I have contacted Iboga world and Michelle said it's better to try 1gram of TA and do micro-dosing in between at first even tho other memebers say a full flood is necessary to be reborn. What do you guys think?

I'm also looking for a sitter as i am in the Toronto/GTA area. I don't know many people and noone i know would be down to be a sitter for me. Thank you

i need this to be introsceptive and see what my mind doesnt allow me to 
I know people are hesistant to reply but please do. I have tryed drugs before none have worked

p.s- im also going to start therapy at a hospital which tbh might not do much cuz im emotionally blind

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amberlynx· 3d ago

That is an interesting recommendation from Michele. I there has been a lot of discussion on these boards about her recommendations but I don't think anyone has EVER suggested that her recommended doses are too low. I think this is the first time I've seen a recommended dose from her that wasn't for addiction interruption. I have found that iboga in microdoses has some incredible synergy with talk therapy ( you might not want to mention it to your therapist, though ). It can restore your emotional eyesight, so to speak. It helped me get really deep.

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honestdove19· 3d ago

I have read your posts. I have been speaking to some people and one user suggests that 1 gram of TA is like a booster for me which that person mentions is not good and doesn't advise on it. What do you advise? I was plannin on doing 1 gram of TA with a potential sitter I found on this site but I'm I'm unsure now. When you micro-dosed did you feel any awareness or effects or realizations or was it placebo? What would you recommend? If micro-dosing what kind of schedule? This September ill be repeating my senior year in hs. Thank you

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georgena92· 3d ago

I got your PM and read this post as well. Unfortunately I have adopted a policy of not treating or giving advice to people with mental conditions and giving them medicines. I hope this doesn't come off as pompous, it is for my own personal safety. Things in Turtle Island (US) are already difficult legally for us and I don't personally want to take even more risks. Regards to you, K

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honestdove19· 3d ago

is there anyway i can talk to you about on this on another chat platform to discuss this more? thank you?

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mistyfalcon17· 3d ago

Microdosing has definite effects--no placebo. It can be very powerful. If you do 1g TA, have a sitter, for sure, and make sure you leave *at least* 3 days free from the initial dosing. A week is best. Maybe do it during Christmas break? Whether I microdose or take more, I find that my Iboga experience follows a pattern: first, it's difficult. I am forced to come to face many issues in my life and problems with the way I'm thinking and acting. Then, I release those things. Then, I feel strong and very productive. Then, a little bit later, there is emptiness and it is up to me to fill it. When you microdose, you might want to ride these cycles. When you feel a cycle is finished (it might take 2-3 days) you can redose. That's what I plan on doing, anyway.

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